Morning Deferred
May 14, 2008 — MelSitting on my ill bed during the melenistic wars, I once asked myself what the purpose of everything was. Why did I bother caring. There had seemed to always have been an essence of love in my heart, from the moment of birth. I was literally deteriorating, and I still held onto that little light. I remembered the story of the little person who screamt loud, even if no one was paying mind, he still kept yelling. Because if he didn’t no one else would.
Today that little plant of love, seems like a forest in my head. I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.
All I can say is….
The power of love…..is very powerful.
Talk about an opening thought eh :)
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Today I didn’t go to work the full day. I actually stayed home for most of the morning, due to more important business, and then I went to work afterwards for like an hour or two. Came back home.
It was nice being in the palace, just, feeling the morning sun. I don’t always get the convenience, everyday to see the morning sun, or feel it….inside the Palace. Theres something interesting about the morning sun. From 5-6….the sun is fresh….and it feels sleepy. From 6-7…it starts waking up, like it just drunk something and ate breakfast. 8-10…it starts…getting it’s starts it’s job…..but….it has this amazing…calmness and gentleness to it. 11-12 it starts getting into action (Around 12…the sun…leaves my heart…because Morning is my favorite time, and nights)……and so forth.
So it was nice being at home, drinking orange juice, eating breakfast and such.
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You know that saying, work hard, play harder? For a lot of people, it’s Work hard and sleep harder lmao.
Too bad theres not more hours in a day eh. It’s actually possible to rework the hours but….that has to be an official change by all the officials and such.
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Lol…someone was joking to Mike that now that he’s 18…he can do all kindsa things…like buy cigarettes and such.
What this person was implying was that….now that he’s 18…he can do all kindsa…things that weren’t free to us.
On the otherhand….Mike said it himself…that it doesn’t really matter to him because he wouldn’t do those things anyways.
And THAT is…what makes a person “18″.
18 year olds believe that….they have freedom now…..which they do…legally…..but if your not going to do so and so…then it doesn’t matter. Other than that, 18 is just like 17, and wont be no different than 19.
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Young Adults also have the idea that, having a good time and enjoying happiness means doing certain things or activities that can be frowned on. While it does…bring happiness…that type of happiness is more like a high. And what goes up…..— but the thing is…..when it comes down….it comes down hard.
It’s like a person who sees a piece of cake on a land mine. They see the cake, but they are so occupied in the present perspective, that their hindsight is blinded.
Temporary happiness….is not real. It’s an illusion. False illusions……
Luckily…Mike knows this.
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The other day, I was really sleepy. So I hopped i Lizzys Bed and fell right to sleep :).
What was the significance of that? Lol….
To explain the peace and joy and safety of being next to her. In her presence.
Beautiful people radiate that essence.
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That reminds me. 30 isn’t old.
35…isn’t old.
40….is….not….old. It’s “approaching old”….but it’s still not old.
50….in my opinion…is the beginning of old.
And even then….Old is a state of mind.
And of course…if you have a mind set like Mike….ie, being on a Spartan training program to prevent old age problems, then “Old” really does become a figment of societies imagination.
I know 50 year olds who look like 30 year olds.
Laughter and smiling, happiness and love……these things keep the body springy. If you don’t believe me, go look at some truly happy people and look how radiant they are.
Besides, Mother earth is 4.6 billion years old. We are tiny babies :D.
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*Staring at TV*
I never seen E. T.
I don’t think I wanna see it…..
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Speaking of Spartans.
It’s cool and all how Society heroisizes them. Ancient Spartans are a thing of coolness in modern society because of their strength and leadership and cool military ways.
On the other hand….and the hand that people overlook is that…..
babies….who were deemed “Defective”…..were thrown off mountains to death.
Their entire mindset was based on Military life.
I remember watching Apocalypo and someone asked me “how the hell are they still running lol, thats not real”….
Truth is…..back then…thats what they did for a living. They ran all day. And hunted. Today…the modern man…well you know. But thats because life agenda shifted.
Military life…..It’s not that….ideal. The idea of being Spartanic…is cool and yes I am making tons of words up but thats what I do best and they sound pretty darn professional :D……..but actually living the life is not.
It’s that saying like….step in someones choose….
Y’all know.
on the other other hand, it was one of thee first societies where Women were equal to men.
Like in 300 when xerxes threatens to enslave the women and kill the children. Leonidas tells him sometime along the lines of “Clearly, you don’t know our women that well. After what I’ve seen, I should’ve made THEM march instead. “
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An elder was telling me about….a friend of hers. And how….she is kinda sick now…..not sick…but like….currently fragile. So she believes alot of past abuse is catching up with her body. Like after shocks.
She…married and got pregnant young…..because such was the custom of the old age.
And unfortunately, the fellow…..was abusive.
On the other hand…..abuse….to women…..well….womens…groups didn’t exist back then.
On the other hand…..moral knowledge…explains that it isn’t right.
So…..you get where I’m going with this.
I didn’t say nothing about the story, besides lending my ear.
But in the back of my head I was thinking….
” As long as I’m living, there will not be another War in this family ever again. No fights, no violence, no nothing”.
Kinda like how Zeus ordered that no god will fight another god in mount olympus. But I’m one upping on Zeus because, even then, the gods played mind games against eachother. I won’t be tolerating none of that. I won’t be tolerating nothing negative.
I don’t wanna hear it…I don’t wanna see it….I don’t wanna even think about it.
People today really do got it easy. And it’s okay to have a better and easier life, but it’s not okay to forget the knowledge that was intended to go along with the gift of simplicity.
It’s a new reign, and I’m not settling for Less.
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Speaking of women abused.
Myammar…..
China….
Tornadoes….
A woman can take much abuse……but eventually….she too will feel angered.
And she’s a beautiful woman. All she’s ever done for us was give to her children. She’s given us everything she has.
*staring at big businesses*
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We went to see one of Mikeys elders, and she shared a few stories with us. Not lessons….but regular conversations that WE drew lessons from.
A lot of it is love based. She too…..in her old age….agees that love is very important. Love has consumed her. And you know what?….As grim and creepy as this sounds….and god forbids…..when she passes from this life…..there will be many many many tears shed. Genuine.
She told us, that, for the people she loves, she shows care.
Um…and…..the story….was that….some of her relatives…use to argue over money. I don’t wanna go into details because….it’s not really relevant.
The point is….is really that money isn’t everything. Like always though, unfortunately, it takes folks too late to realize things. At the end of the day, money is insignificant. More importantly, at the end of your life, money…is not important.
So she reiterated important lessons to us.
*shaking head*….families…….the most amazing chaotic battles have been between families. And alot of times….money and property has a part to play in it.
Remember….Family isn’t….blood.
Family is the people who are close to your heart.
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Me and My family were joking about some lady that we know, who once walked straight to the manager in the bank. She didn’t wait. Almost like VIP service.
All I’m saying is…..
You never know who’s a millionaire.
You can be walking by people everyday…with cheap clothing…or regular or casual looks….or…such and such….and no jewelry…..but never know that they are millionaires….
*Blinks*
Reality.
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Been doing more of that flirting stuff with Mike.
:)…….
He Makes life much easier for me.
I had a nice romantic moment, walking outside with him. Just walking. Nothing important…just walking and watching things and such and such.
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I had my hair in this kinda curly and wavy look.
I felt quite special.
A Crown to a Queen…..the Hair to Mel the Belle From Hell aka the Pharaoh Mel
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Today I spent a great deal of time with my perrty sister.
She’s genuine in her own way, and I like that about her.
*yawns*…..
I wanna go spend time with her right now but I think she’s sleeping, and I think everyone else is too, and I should be sleeping too.
Such and such….
So on and so forth….
Signed
Meleus