Morning Deferred

Sitting on my ill bed during the melenistic wars, I once asked myself what the purpose of everything was. Why did I bother caring. There had seemed to always have been an essence of love in my heart, from the moment of birth. I was literally deteriorating, and I still held onto that little light. I remembered the story of the little person who screamt loud, even if no one was paying mind, he still kept yelling. Because if he didn’t no one else would.

Today that little plant of love, seems like a forest in my head. I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.

All I can say is….

The power of love…..is very powerful.

Talk about an opening thought eh :)
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Today I didn’t go to work the full day. I actually stayed home for most of the morning, due to more important business, and then I went to work afterwards for like an hour or two. Came back home.

It was nice being in the palace, just, feeling the morning sun. I don’t always get the convenience, everyday to see the morning sun, or feel it….inside the Palace. Theres something interesting about the morning sun. From 5-6….the sun is fresh….and it feels sleepy. From 6-7…it starts waking up, like it just drunk something and ate breakfast. 8-10…it starts…getting it’s starts it’s job…..but….it has this amazing…calmness and gentleness to it. 11-12 it starts getting into action (Around 12…the sun…leaves my heart…because Morning is my favorite time, and nights)……and so forth.

So it was nice being at home, drinking orange juice, eating breakfast and such.
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You know that saying, work hard, play harder? For a lot of people, it’s Work hard and sleep harder lmao.

Too bad theres not more hours in a day eh. It’s actually possible to rework the hours but….that has to be an official change by all the officials and such.

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Lol…someone was joking to Mike that now that he’s 18…he can do all kindsa things…like buy cigarettes and such.

What this person was implying was that….now that he’s 18…he can do all kindsa…things that weren’t free to us.

On the otherhand….Mike said it himself…that it doesn’t really matter to him because he wouldn’t do those things anyways.

And THAT is…what makes a person “18″.

18 year olds believe that….they have freedom now…..which they do…legally…..but if your not going to do so and so…then it doesn’t matter. Other than that, 18 is just like 17, and wont be no different than 19.
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Young Adults also have the idea that, having a good time and enjoying happiness means doing certain things or activities that can be frowned on. While it does…bring happiness…that type of happiness is more like a high. And what goes up…..— but the thing is…..when it comes down….it comes down hard.

It’s like a person who sees a piece of cake on a land mine. They see the cake, but they are so occupied in the present perspective, that their hindsight is blinded.

Temporary happiness….is not real. It’s an illusion. False illusions……

Luckily…Mike knows this.
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The other day, I was really sleepy. So I hopped i Lizzys Bed and fell right to sleep :).

What was the significance of that? Lol….

To explain the peace and joy and safety of being next to her. In her presence.

Beautiful people radiate that essence.
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That reminds me. 30 isn’t old.

35…isn’t old.

40….is….not….old. It’s “approaching old”….but it’s still not old.

50….in my opinion…is the beginning of old.

And even then….Old is a state of mind.

And of course…if you have a mind set like Mike….ie, being on a Spartan training program to prevent old age problems, then “Old” really does become a figment of societies imagination.

I know 50 year olds who look like 30 year olds.

Laughter and smiling, happiness and love……these things keep the body springy. If you don’t believe me, go look at some truly happy people and look how radiant they are.

Besides, Mother earth is 4.6 billion years old. We are tiny babies :D.
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*Staring at TV*

I never seen E. T.

I don’t think I wanna see it…..
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Speaking of Spartans.

It’s cool and all how Society heroisizes them. Ancient Spartans are a thing of coolness in modern society because of their strength and leadership and cool military ways.

On the other hand….and the hand that people overlook is that…..

babies….who were deemed “Defective”…..were thrown off mountains to death.

Their entire mindset was based on Military life.

I remember watching Apocalypo and someone asked me “how the hell are they still running lol, thats not real”….

Truth is…..back then…thats what they did for a living. They ran all day. And hunted. Today…the modern man…well you know. But thats because life agenda shifted.

Military life…..It’s not that….ideal. The idea of being Spartanic…is cool and yes I am making tons of words up but thats what I do best and they sound pretty darn professional :D……..but actually living the life is not.

It’s that saying like….step in someones choose….

Y’all know.

on the other other hand, it was one of thee first societies where Women were equal to men.

Like in 300 when xerxes threatens to enslave the women and kill the children. Leonidas tells him sometime along the lines of “Clearly, you don’t know our women that well. After what I’ve seen, I should’ve made THEM march instead. “
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An elder was telling me about….a friend of hers. And how….she is kinda sick now…..not sick…but like….currently fragile. So she believes alot of past abuse is catching up with her body. Like after shocks.

She…married and got pregnant young…..because such was the custom of the old age.

And unfortunately, the fellow…..was abusive.

On the other hand…..abuse….to women…..well….womens…groups didn’t exist back then.

On the other hand…..moral knowledge…explains that it isn’t right.

So…..you get where I’m going with this.

I didn’t say nothing about the story, besides lending my ear.

But in the back of my head I was thinking….

” As long as I’m living, there will not be another War in this family ever again. No fights, no violence, no nothing”.

Kinda like how Zeus ordered that no god will fight another god in mount olympus. But I’m one upping on Zeus because, even then, the gods played mind games against eachother. I won’t be tolerating none of that. I won’t be tolerating nothing negative.

I don’t wanna hear it…I don’t wanna see it….I don’t wanna even think about it.

People today really do got it easy. And it’s okay to have a better and easier life, but it’s not okay to forget the knowledge that was intended to go along with the gift of simplicity.

It’s a new reign, and I’m not settling for Less.
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Speaking of women abused.

Myammar…..

China….

Tornadoes….

A woman can take much abuse……but eventually….she too will feel angered.

And she’s a beautiful woman. All she’s ever done for us was give to her children. She’s given us everything she has.

*staring at big businesses*

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We went to see one of Mikeys elders, and she shared a few stories with us. Not lessons….but regular conversations that WE drew lessons from.

A lot of it is love based. She too…..in her old age….agees that love is very important. Love has consumed her. And you know what?….As grim and creepy as this sounds….and god forbids…..when she passes from this life…..there will be many many many tears shed.  Genuine.

She told us, that, for the people she loves, she shows care.

Um…and…..the story….was that….some of her relatives…use to argue over money. I don’t wanna go into details because….it’s not really relevant.

The point is….is really that money isn’t everything. Like always though, unfortunately, it takes folks too late to realize things. At the end of the day, money is insignificant. More importantly, at the end of your life, money…is not important.

So she reiterated important lessons to us.

*shaking head*….families…….the most amazing chaotic battles have been between families. And  alot of times….money and property has a part to play in it.

Remember….Family isn’t….blood.

Family is the people who are close to your heart.
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Me and My family were joking about some lady that we know, who once walked straight to the manager in the bank. She didn’t wait. Almost like VIP service.

All I’m saying is…..

You never know who’s a millionaire.

You can be walking by people everyday…with cheap clothing…or regular or casual looks….or…such and such….and no jewelry…..but never know that they are millionaires….

*Blinks*

Reality.
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Been doing more of that flirting stuff with Mike.

:)…….

He Makes life much easier for me.

I had a nice romantic moment, walking outside with him. Just walking. Nothing important…just walking and watching things and such and such.

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I had my hair in this kinda curly and wavy look.

I felt quite special.

A Crown to a Queen…..the Hair to Mel the Belle From Hell aka the Pharaoh Mel

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Today I spent a great deal of time with my perrty sister.

She’s genuine in her own way, and I like that about her.

*yawns*…..

I wanna go spend time with her right now but I think she’s sleeping, and I think everyone else is too, and I should be sleeping too.

Such and such….

So on and so forth….

Signed
Meleus

The House Of Meleus

*Yawns*. Yesterday and Today….been doing stuff…..lotsa stuff….didn’t get the sleep I thought I was gonna get. But thats okay because today was eventful and productive.

Woke up this morning and saw the Sun…..and I just knew the day would be good. Very very beautiful sun.

I’mma just breeze though this entry cause, I’ve been half asleep most of the day.

But I got my Ipod touch, and the xbox :). Of course, there wont be any more “Gifts” bought, on account, we wont have anything important to celebrate.

Truth……and as usual……..material……doesn’t touch my heart anymore. It’s nice….and it’s fun……but it doesn’t give me that natural high…..that I get off of love and happiness and my family.

The Ipod touch box is sexy :). It has a picture of John Lennon on it. I don’t think imma throw away the box lol.

I didn’t really get to fully ENJOY my items because, I was preoccupied with other things and….well…now…I gotta go to sleep to wake up in the morning. But, I really really like the touch. I’m sure I’ll have a good time with it.

But I feel really good. You know. Because…..this is a spiritual growth. It means that I’ve fully, grasped Material. Meaning that I can enjoy material without being attached. Material…is just material….and I understand and comprehend that there are more important things in life.
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Mike said something similar to that. He had a very quiet birthday :).

He said to me that….after a certain time….he started realizing that everyday that he’s alive is like his birthday. He’s blessed.

I like the way he thought about that. I like the way he analyzes it.

Yes….he still remembers and understands…and honors that certain day with a little emphasis….but he also remembers that…….. the people who love him……the people who care about him…… are a 365 days 24/7 thing.

But yeah, that’s why he usually don’t throw parties or stuff. He likes a simple life.

We ate, and we talked and we had fun :).
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I went to Mom this morning. For obvious reasons :).

But before that…..I took a moment just to reflect on the Melenistic Wars.
I asked myself…..what would the House of Meleus be like today……..if I didn’t intervene…..if I didn’t try to help them…..If I hadn’t forgave them…..or continue to love them…..or let them see the bigger picture…..despite…….all…..they’ve….done…to me.

Most importantly……If Liz hadn’t surfaced…….if they didn’t look inside their hearts….if they didn’t try to make a change for the better.
Anyways. I know the answer to that. And I’m sure anyone can guess what the opposite of peace is.

Um…

similarly

So I smiled….and knocked on mommas door…..and brought her some flowers…..and I said to her….

“Do you need a day for me to tell you I love you?”…..

And she hugged me and kissed me and had a good laugh at that one.

And in my head I said……”Good……good…..that’s…what I wanted to hear :)”…

A day to love a mother……just doesn’t cut it with Mel. I spend my life, loving her.

But she got her flowers, and she got her little things and we had a beautiful morning together.

I love what she did with her apartment.

She has so many beautiful plants….so many cool greens.

You know……there is this beautiful…..peaceful….soulful feeling….when you have a plant in the house….and the sunshine shines through…..and that natural effect starts happening.

Plants are….beautiful.

You ever sprinkled water on a soft plant?…..in the sun…..it looks almost like it’s happy and jumping and shaking for joy.
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On the other hand.

I do believe…there are mothers out there….who don’t deserve to be mothers. Whether because their neglectful….or because they are…doing something deceptive….or they are mistreating someone…..or for a plethora of reasons.

Not every mother is a mother. Giving birth to a child doesn’t make you  mother.
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This morning was funny cause I ate cake for breakfast.

Yes….I’m a rebel……

Ok not really but it was funny :)

And I did feel it afterwards…
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You know whats funny bout some men and perfumes?

They don’t like the idea of sweetness.

But once they get hooked…..they become experts at fragrances….

Go figure
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And then my phone got bombarded with phone calls.

Maya called :).

I was planning to call her but she called first :).

So I had a nice talk with her.
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And of course….my sweet like nectared Lizzy. Beautiful and graceful and the Queen of the House of Meleus.

And I spent some time with Ms. 19 and Liz and her momma.

This morning I prayed. Thanked heavens for things. Loved my family.

The House of Meleus……
*yawns*

Now  on that note….I’ll call it a wrap :)

I hope everyone had a good weekend. As well.

Off to sleep I go :).

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn.
Signed
Meleus

I thought it was chicken…..

You know, theres a lot of these wordpress features that I haven’t played around with yet.

Lol…heh…that reminds me. Mike doesn’t like speaking on the phone. When he was little, his parents would ask him to answer the phone for them and then the folks would talk and never give him their name. So Mike would just hang up and then no one would know who called. No body….ever…really says…”Hello…I’m…so and so”…… it’s usually like “Hey, is your dad home?”….”Ok then I’ll call back later….bye”….. Nowadays, if you have something to say to Mike, you usually have to come face to face with him lol….he’s not a phone person.

So yeah, the other day I was spending some time exploring some wordpress features.
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Mike’s Birthday is today :). Today he officially turns 18. Funny cause….we both still havent’ grown past 5 yet.

He’s not awake yet, so, the show won’t begin. But for now, I’ll tell you a bit of how friday for me and us went.
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Speaking of Mike. Mike’s been doing that “correct your mistakes” thing more and more. I can tell.

That’s like…if you yell at your child, later in the day or immediately, you take a moment to analyze the situation and try to correct it  later or do better later. If you yelled at your child because you were stressed, then next time you have to minimize the stress and talk more calmly. Yells get yelled back :).

But it’s a good thing…..and i’ts beneficial. Observation is great.
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That reminds me.

I was thinking about old western movies, spaghetti films like Clinton Eastwood, and I remember sometimes when they were in deserts, they would find a pool of water and slab water all over their lips without really smiling or nothing.

I realized why, a long time ago when Mike woke up with chapped lips. They were dried and he didn’t bother smiling. Smiling would only rip open the lip. He had to wait till it as saturated with water.
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Was watchin TV. I think it’s funny when those weight loss programs come on, like Jenny Craig or something, and on the very tiniest of bottoms, on the very faintest of whites….it says “Results not Typical”.

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Friday and Thursday I had some serious evaluations.

*stretching* Glad they are over with.

Nothing I haven’t gotten use to though.

The week started off extremely sunny and ended up extremely drenched.

You know what though? Like I’ve said before……somehow…with a lil smiling and loving…and thoughts about my favorite things in life….like…Liz…..Winter…summer……rain…sun….they all seem the same at the end of the day.

Mmmm Liz.

Ya know, I haven’t had my daily Liz-dose yet. I need my fix.
lmao.

How can I not love someone who is genuine.

But yeah. I’ve noticed that. That weathers….just don’t really matter sometimes. Everyday is sunny in my head.

Oh and I’ve also felt this energy in the palace.

When I come home…….or wherever I go………and immediately….as I enter this palace……

My energy feels….revitalized……restored…….and my head feels sooo calm…..everything feels tranquil.

I often say that this is my serene and tranquil place, but the truth is? That it IS. It really is. *blinks*

I reckon it’s cause of the energy I let out…floats around here :).

That or the fact that my family is home. Homes where the heart is and such.

I’m hungry.
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Been workin out :). You know cardio and stuff.

The hardest part? Being consistent. But it’s all good, cause I’m dedicating at LEAST thrice a week to cardio.

Mr hearty is your friend now and you never hear a whisper out of him, but if you mistreat him, later on when your both older….you’ll never forget him.
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Oh and that reminds me of Weight and Fat. I was thinking about weight and fat.

I thought about muscles and fat actually.

I just thought it was interesting that a person who weighs 200 pounds can look extremely different than a person who weighs 200 pounds.

Muscles is heavier than Fat.  Height is another one of those factors.

Kinda like…..that question….whats heavier….a pound of feathers or gold? feathers is heavier. Why? Because of a tricking measurement. feather in pounds is measured in a scale that actually weighs more than gold. Go figure. But an ounce of feathers and an ounce of gold?  Gold is heavier because it uses the original scale that we know. A kilo is a kilo.

On the other hand…..Weight and Mass is also something very different. That’s why I rather have 100 pounds of water fall on me than a 100 pounds of bricks :D. BTW….100 pounds of water and bricks weigh the same because they follow one scale.

Then theres that thing about people on the moon. And thats where Mass is really calculated. Or not. Mass stays the same on the moon and on earth, it’s a constant. But gravitational pull, height and things like that, creates “Weight”. Weight is mass times the gravitational force.

Yeah like I said…I rather have 100 pounds of water fall on me than 100 pounds of anything solidified thank you :).
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Hm.

I love Liz.

Yes….I’m having a moment here :).

Kinda like eating chocolate.

I need some chocolate too.
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Friday….. Liz and Nikki was in pandoras box with me….and my usual favorite gravitators(They actually came later, so it was just me and Nikki at first. On account I had my door locked)……

And so…..it was in the morning….but towards 11…and we were feeling hungry.

I had to come to work extra early and lose sleep.

You know what? Because of the fact that I knew I had to go to work early…I didn’t bother sleeping. I just stayed up and went on my way. I had my morning tea fix, so I was quite happy.

So I didn’t really get to eat much. I DID eat, but it was really early…so…that worked out before I left to go to work lol.

Plus I had evaluations and things so I was really hungry :).

I’m beginning to like that word too much.

So we were in there…and we decided to go outside and buy food. Closed the office and went a walkin.

I really went cause I wanted to do some walking and spend some time with Liz and Nikki.

We decided that sandwiches would do the trick.

I actually have a fridge in Pandoras box Lmao. I had kept Pasta in there for a few days now, but I needed something other than Pasta. Rest assure the pasta was eaten :D.

But so we went ’splorin and saw some sandwich places. And we bought…….what we assumed……was chicken. Or Cheese.

Yes. Chicken or Cheese.

*Clicking fast forward button*

So I open Pandoras Box and we go inside and I left the door open. Thats when the gravitators came in after.

Opened our brunches and ….—- yes…that was what it was….a brunch :D……

Opened our brunches and…….I took a bite of my sandwich.

Actually….I was the only one who bought the chicken/cheese looking sandwich. Liz bought a sandwich that actually ACTUALLY looked like chicken. Nikki bought some other things and Liz bought some other things to eat a long with their sandwiches. Mel did the same too, but nothing too heavy because I had Pasta waiting for me.

So I take a bite out of the sandwich…..which I THOUGHT was Chicken AND OR CHEESE………….and I tasted…..something so bland…..so tasteless…..so icky…….that……I couldn’t eat it.

One of the gravitators who was in there, and Liz and Nikki all got a peace to try lol.

They all agreed that it was Tofu.

Tofu?

WHat….The…….Fudge……!!!

I Wanted chicken!!! Mel doesn’t eat tofu!!! We don’t believe in Tofu!!!!

Luckily, sharing is caring and fortunately my loveys shared with me :).

Vegetarians……….pfft……

I like soy milk and all….Only if it’s vanilla or chocolate….but I don’t think I like Tofu.

Infact, I do believe, this is the first time I ate Tofu :).

I could’ve sworn it was chicken or cheese. But I guess, that’s the purpose of Tofu……imitation.

I know that it’s possible to make Tofu taste good……….and let alone…it’s very very good for you…..

I might be enticed one day to make some of my OWN Tofu.

But the Tofu I bought….just wasn’t….cutting it. Which just reemphasizes my dislike for outside food. Can’t rely on em.

I should give Mike some Tofu one day to see if he’ll be tricked into thinking it’s chicken. But I doubt it cause all Mike eats….is chicken. lmao.
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So yeah, that was my Friday and my run in with Tofu.

Quite an adventure.

lmao.

Imma go see what Liz is doing and the rest of em. And then…..the feast.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn.
Signed
Mel the Jewel, who’s too cool for pre school. Aka the lil big conqueror……aka….that who has more incarnations than there are recipes for Tofu

Speech

So I gave the speech today at Hell :).

You know, I intended to have Mike record my speech, so I could’ve shared it with y’all. I wanted it to be unique, but professional, and very Mellish. As I intended, I did read from my heart, and from a few points that I jotted down, opposed to reading from a script. This way, it came from my heart and it was more effective.

I didn’t take long, on purpose. I spoke to them….very…much…like a conversation. I told them that I was honored, and I told them a short story about how I came here at Hell almost 4 years ago, and was determined to take advantage of Life ever since. I told them how great it is being here and I told them the effort and hard work and 110% I put in each day. I told them everything I felt. More importantly in this speech, I told them, my intentions for the future. I closed off the speech with a few more thank you’s and closed it up. Throughout the speech, I talked very calmly, and was my casual self. It went well because it was literally as if I was talking to them in a conversation, opposed to giving a customary speech.

They enjoyed it. They praised me. They gave their nurturing words, as usual….etc etc….

All is well.
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Quickly, I just wanna glance on something interesting I noticed today. I had to run an errand, early in the morning, and so I took the train. On one of the train, I saw a poster about some book by some lady named Joyce Meyer. I did some really really quick research on her in my computer in Pandoras Box, and basically she’s one of those motivational speakers, Cept she’s one of those Christian based people who speaks.

So I looked up at the poster and I said to myself “Are you kidding me??”……

I was shocked, because…. what was on the poster, was the same thing I’ve been saying since forever.

Her title of her book is The Secret to True Happiness : Enjoy Today, Embrace Tomorrow

And underneath the title was like…5 points or something.

-Start with God
-know yourself
-Laugh a Little
-Trust through the Trials
-Refuse to be busy

Wanna know a secret? Those 5 points alone….is all you need. You don’t need the rest of the pages. BUT…alot of people don’t realize that.

I’ll explain further on.

So I’m looking at these points and thinking to myself…

…..She went to school to learn what I learned through observations…

Almost every entry ever since the Post Melenistic Wars, I’ve been saying the same points, but not the way she puts it. I’ve been trelaying the same things and other things to my family since forever.

Start with yourself…with family..god….know yourself…laugh…live,….love…learn…….learn from experiences…….never settle for less…..etc etc etc etc etc…… You’ve all heard me express these things that have brought ME happiness.

Maybe *I* should write a novel. But I’m sure no one would believe a soon to be 18 year old ;). Because afterall…to society….I’m just a kid :). Ah well, thats why leading by example is better in some cases.

You know……

what really……….tickles me……….
Is the fact that…….. I don’t care about Joyce Meyer or her book, She is very irrelevant to this subject.

But the fact that somebody can call these known truths a “Secret”….and put it on paper and make millions off of that……tickles me :). A lot of people call those simple words, secrets, when it’s not.

It tickles me.
We go through life….asking for a manual to life….failing to realize…we are well equipped.
It is…not a secret.

Living….Laughing….Loving…..and Learning.
Smile and Love.
These things are NOT secrets

Just meditating on those single words can change your entire life. I just hope, more people, can get in touch with their spirits.
It can’t be a secret because the world preached it right in our faces since the very first breath we took. Literally.
That’s why Self knowledge, and textbook knowledge, go hand to hand.
It’s not that they are secrets, but those tiny…little words…..takes practice…..and such.

UPDATE:

Funny thing just happened this morning. Was flicking the tv and eating my breakfast and saw….Joyce Meyers. In the beginning of this show, this 30 minute show, she came to India and talked about the ooverty and what not and said something like “Lets see what will happen if we brought the voice of god” or something along those lines.

So probably bigger than a beetles concert, all these indian folks huddled around listening to this woman, and there was a skinny indian translator dude…translating each word she said to the Indians.

I have a good mind to think that they were paid to attend, opposed to volunteering.

Ok…so…yeah…she’s a Televangelist. Sorta.

Then they had a cut screen and some lady was being all emotional about how water was so dire in that country and of course the sad children scenes and such. And so, they mentioned something about donation and jesus christ and they had a scene with a pump that was created. And Right next to it? A Jesus Christ temple or worship place or church, with a cross right next to it. Similar to the propaganda that the missionaries of the old days use to use.

Yesterday, I was surprised because many of the things on that paper  like “Laughing”….was similar to what I believe in.

I came to my realization that it’s not. Her laughing and my laughing is too different things. Whatever she says, somehow is laced with some discrete or visible form of god. Like a sneaky tactic in my opinion.

What I believe in….Does involve “god”….but what I believe in, is in the truth. Religion is good and all, but the truth is the basis of all religion. Religion shouldn’t be a thing that’s forced, it should be a choice.

And then she’s asking donations at the end or something. PBS style.

I had a feeling she was a televangelist. I had a feeling she was like one of them.

Whatever man……

to each their own……I guess…..

I have to get to work. Leaving early today. *Stretching*…

As always,

The little big Conqueror
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You know, I should just backspace all that about the secret nonsense.

Wastin all that time on that lol. Psh, I could’ve been typing bout things I like. Like food and Liz :D.

Lol

Really….I wanted this entry to be…somewhat focused on Liz and the relationship she has with her mother…

The other day, I was having one of those odd zoning out moments.

Liz was, talking in a different tongue, and she looked so beautiful on that particular day (She looks beautiful everyday,)….and she was talking to her elders. While speaking with her elders…….she used a different language….and….it was just so…intoxicating. I just…find…something beautiful about…how she cleanly speaks english…..and then can change right into another language at the blink of an eye.
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At Hell…..had another beautiful day. Very warm, very sunny, very friendly to my bones.

I had my favorite gravitators in there. I really do enjoy their company, especially because they are very loyal to me. Many of them, I really enjoy, especially when I have a task that needs my attention. They are very contributive…very….ready….etc etc. They have great qualities. All of my gravitators have great qualities in their own way.
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Heres something I was thinking about.

The little things….can…snipe you. Or what I mean is….after a certain time, if the little things aren’t handled correctly, they can have a huge impact. Like stress build up. Or like money….if you buy 5 dollar sandwiches every week…at the end of the year, thats more money all together than if you would’ve bought one pricey item. So the little things can build up if they aren’t properly managed.

Contrarily…… …..the little things, can have a very positive impact as well. Such as little steps, determination, etc etc.

But I wanna focus on Mike…..

He’s not the type of person who will buy me a Boat……..but he is the type of person who always seem to speak his love to me, do little things, and express his love here and there. The potency, of those little little things here and there, create this love nest between us. They add up.

The little things :).
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I dunno anymore about charity. I believe in it, in some cases. When it comes to someone in need, charity can make a difference, plus it’s something good for the soul. But when we are talking about permanent….it’s better to make a permanent difference.

Like those collection things on TV with those poor kids and such. Instead of donating 5 cents every month to feed and clothe little so and so……instead…that money should go to create something…for little so and so and his or her friends……like…a clean fountain for water….or cleaner water systems in general. Clean shelters. Homes. Schools. Etc etc etc.

You know the saying…..fish….teach a man…..give him the pole…etc etc
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Lol….

I remember Mike once had an item…..which got scratched once.

And so it came to his attention.

And he says…….

“Thats not a scratch. Thats a Veteran Mark”

You gotta love the way he thinks eh :).
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Right right. On to the Lizzy.

I think, If someone were to ask Liz who has been one of her greatest influences, she probably would’ve said her mother.

Liz was very intelligent academically. Today, she is still very sharp.

But you know….she said things like….she…understood her mother….and she understood why she did the things she did or said the things she said….and understood her actions….and she adhered to the words of her mother….and she listened to her.

She was and is proud of her mother. Very.

Her mother, has taught her to always speak her mind and stand up for what she feels is correct. To never settle for less. And many other good things were taught.

And it was a beautiful combination for young Liz because, she was shaping into a genuine person who was not a product of anyone or society. She was a product of herself.

Today…and ever since…..Liz’s mom….was proud of her daughter.

You know…..as I’m typing…I just can’t seem to put these words down, the way I want them to sound. It’s something so romantic in my head. It’s so lovely and beautiful.

These are beautiful women, because they are genuine.

I just love the idea of how, Daughter and Mother…gets along so great. To this day, they are extremely close.

And yeah….these things….make me happy. It’s special to see that.

When I reflect on my own life, I feel good knowing that my mommy is proud of who I am….and I’m glad she’s close by. To my heart.

Liz has been proud of her mother since she can remember. She admired her mother a lot.

In a strange way, we are the Avatars of our parents. If god is our mother and father, then we manifest as well.

It’s so beautiful to think about. To think how much love circles around those two.

She believed in her mother, and aspired to have the same qualities as her mother.

Just to know these things………..just to know these connections and these energies that circle around my heart………god……it just……feels….so…..amazing. Better than money, riches, fortune. This is…..true happiness.
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I wanna go make a sandwich, take a quick nap, wake up….family…..tv…..

I wanna………eat dinner…….later….not now.

I wanna……

I’m very thankful for another day on earth.

*yawns*

Can’t wait for the week to be over though.

*Yawns*

I might take that nap first…..

I share with you, my happiness. The greatest gift, I’ve ever shared with myself.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn. Sandwiches…make the world go round.
Signed
Melius Aurelius

Good to be back

Jay Leno. I think he’s corny. He tries to hard.
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I considered it. And I decided, sometime during this week, I’ll present my speech, to the powers that be :).

Preferably, before Friday on account Saturday would be Mikes birthday, and a state Holiday for everyone in the Palace and beyond :).

Consider it done.
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I woke up this morning, very early. Intentionally, because, I knew If I would wake up later, that I’d like it too much and throw the covers over me for another 3 hours.

Went to the Queen Consort herself and had tea with her. Enjoyed a beautiful dark morning (the sun wasn’t up yet…but as usual…Liz was)….

As usual, I expressed my love and devotion, respect and happiness to her.
And we did, what we always do during morning tea time. Talk about anything and everything.

I told Liz that today would be a perfect day, and she agreed, and she decided that she and Eric would do something special today.

And for some reason, my mind started wandering.

Started thinking about how wonderful the Pharaohs’ wife is. How…beautiful…intelligent and loving. And what joy it brings me, just to think about the beautiful couple.

I love both of them, very much.

I volunteered to be personal chef this afternoon :). They kept their special event at home, like they usually do. I hope they had a good time :).

Tomorrow will be hot too :D.
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Not going to keep this lengthy, cause I really feel sleepy, since I woke up very early.

I went to Hell today :D. And I was greeted very warmly lol. I didn’t think so many people would be so concerned with me missing a week, but obviously they were. It’s glad to know, that I was missed. It felt good being welcomed back by them.

As usual, the usual occurred :).

Gravitators, gravitated. Some new ones came in Pandoras Box. Some usuals.

But I had a good time.

You know, during the day, me and some of them, had a talk that kinda was kinda interesting. That sentence don’t sound right…..on account I kinda used kinda twice. lol.

But. We started discussing Iron Man and discussed who saw it or not, and then next thing I know, we’re talking about comic books and super heroes and batman and superman and all of them dudes. lol…it was very funny…

It was nice being in Hell. It was nice being in Pandoras box, with the sun….so soothing…so spiritual…so healing. So bright and exciting.

Iron Man did well.

So yeah, the turbines have been officially restarted, for good this time, and everything has reached it’s normalcy again.
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At Hell…..A certain….. …..someone….came  into my office.

He sat at my desk and took the main seat, to write something.

lol……..

It would seem that…..I couldn’t help but subtly flirt with him. A smile with him here, a laugh with him there.

I like him ;).

My dearest Mike.
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It’s good to be back :)
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Mike heaped up a bunch of his old clothing to give away to charity and I had put it in a black garbage bag. In the morning, when Mike woke up and saw the garbage bag, he took it with him to throw out. Mike came back with it and realized that he felt that it was softer than normal garbage.

Get the irony?

He almost threw away the clothing that was to go to charity.

I’d say….god works in mysterious ways…..to salvage that clothing.

We had a good laugh at the ……interesting….mishap.

We definitely had a good laugh because we laughed like…for 5 minutes.
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I wrote a lot just now, but deleted most of it.

It dont really matter :).

I have more to say but…..right now…like I said…it doesn’t really matter.

Point is, your happy. Im happy. The world is sunny again.

Peace and good wishes to my favorite peoples.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn.
Signed
The Mellai Llama

I’ll consider it.

Howdy partner :)

Just a lil this, and a lil that to begin with.

First. I was watching “Rob and Big”, which is a show I wasn’t always …you know…excited about. But you know what? Liz once reminded me that when we try new things, we might end up liking them. Or something like that. I never gave it a chance, until recently and It’s quite good. I hope theres another season. It’s just…funny. You know what I like about Rob and Big? They just….Do stuff. I don’t know if any one can remember, but I once uploaded a magazine picture of a phrase that I saw on the cover of said magazine. Said…”Do stuff”. Very inspirational. Like…they flew all the way to Tijuana….and starting singing in a mariachi band…and found lucha libres to wrestle with…and ….a whole bunch of stuff. Although, yeah, they were on film, I still think that their personality, is that. In other words, that “Do Stuff” attitude, isn’t a front.

Last night I was flicking through channels and saw Chris Rock on television. Not to discredit his other works, like the Everybody hates Chris show which I kinda like, but I find his stand up comedy routine very annoying. In my opinion, During his routine, His voice, his actions, and the way he presents himself is just annoying. He has a few good jokes, but doesn’t have a good follow up, but overall he doesn’t even fall in the “least favorite comedians that I like ” list.

Contrary, I saw a glimpse of Cedric the Entertainer routine. Cedric is the man :).
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While eating that pasta with Mike today, that much anticipated pasta lol, we were taking a trip down memory lane.

I smiled, and remembered when we were younger, and how we would climb up the chairs and sit down to eat the pasta. We always had a thing for the sauce, so we would have a blast eating the pasta.

Towards the end, our faces were practically smeared with pasta and our fingers were red with sauce, and sometimes on our clothing. But boy did we have fun.

Sometimes we would take the tubular pasta, and while we were eating, we’d whistle in a few for a laugh or two.

Good times.

Childhood…is priceless.

But I still stand by the fact that childhood is a state of mind, because this afternoon, while we weren’t covered with sauce, we did whistle into the tubular pasta. I’d use the correct name, but tubular gets the point across.
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June is quickly approaching, and the senor partners have decided to put the final touches and editing on my new promoted contract.

I’ll be given a grand opportunity to tweak and ultimately look over it.

Either way, a promotion is a promotion. It wasn’t exactly to the extent that I wished, but still…like I said…a promotion is a promotion.

It’s also fair to say that I should take my time and not toot the horn too much. It’s wiser too, mentally.

One of the senor partners, and a family member, exclaimed that it’s a usual thing, usually, when a person is promoted, to give a small or lengthy speech in recognition of the hard work placed into the ascension. Although it’s not mandatory, it’s customary.

So I’m not under pressure to prepare a speech.

But. I’d consider it.

If I do make a speech, whether lengthy or short, I do think…I would improvise and speak from the heart, opposed to paper. On the otherhand, I’ve always lived by one of my many mottos “strike before struck” so I wouldn’t be surprised if I jot down or brain storm a few pin point ideas that I’d like to touch.

The speech would have to be semi-professional, but loving, thankful, and with a normalcy and genuity only a Mel could conjure up. I wouldn’t want it any other way.

On the other other hand, time wise, we’ll see….if I even choose to do so, but as of right now, I wouldn’t mind saying a lil speech.

We’ll see what happens.

We’ll see.
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I AM returning to Hell in the morning.

Or atleast, that’s the plan ;).

lmao.

No but I feel good. I feel good. …really. Rested, exercised, got my 30 minutes of cardio in, showered, full bellied, love in my heart. What else could a Pharaoh want.
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On the subject of Pharaoh.

It’s a peculiar thing. Do we fall for the image of the person? Or the actual person? I think, a good balance of both, should be valued.

In truth, there is no such thing as a person who isn’t biased. We all have some kinda prejudgment, bias. For example, I’d assume, the greatest spiritualists are biased against ignorance. They detest ignorance and strive to enlighten themselves. Bias can be more innocent too, like a preference of vanilla over chocolate, or vice versa. Our actions are reflections of our thoughts.

But I do believe, sometimes we forget to love…..our lovers….for their ups…and their downs.

If we only love the image….or the positive traits……then we set our lovers on pedestals that we can’t always accept if they choose to step down from.

It seems more wiser to love a person because of their flaws and of their heights.

Imperfection, is true perfection.

Or….

Ying and yang.

Up and down.

Good and bad.

Left….and right.

There is more benefits in loving a person as a whole, than just choosing a piece of a person to love. And condemning the rest.

For example. It’s wiser to love our mothers….because they are the mother (the image)…and OUR mother…(the reality). You know, she might not make the best pizza, or know how to solve that math problem, but she is still our mother, and a great person and a provider.

When it boils down, to summarize my somewhat confusive thoughts, the main point is to accept and love, and to limit ignorance to a minimal.
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A day after Mikes birthday, will be mothers day :).

A present…for his mother.

On my own homefront, we have a few mothers to love on that particular day. But more focused on only two;

My own mommy….and my mother figure/goddess/queen of the palace/sister/sister in law/best friend/adviser/and love.

For the moment being, my attention seems to be more focused on the latter.

It’s no secret that I do love her.

It’s so soothing, warming and comforting, and almost a blessing, each time I see those two silly kids together. But they aren’t kiddish, but rather mature in their love. They’ve reached a heightened level of love. One that is very loving, responsible and respectful, and one that has minimal potential of damage.

Yes….it’s also no secret that…..besides my own happiness…I find happiness in those around me.

And you know, their anniversary is coming up in a few months. Knowing them, they’d probably do something small and intimate. And I wouldn’t be surprised if she included the family.

Whatever they choose to do, I hope they enjoy it.
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Lately, I’ve been going back and forth about the whole xbox and ipod touch thing. Should I or shouldnt I?….Should I…or Shouldnt I?….Should I– and so on.

I think, because of the circumstances, it’s would be wise to reward ourselves. I think we certainly deserve it. Especially knowing how frugal both of us can be.

Obviously, at the end of the day, after we have bought these…..Items……I wont be surprised when I put those items down and spend time with my family.

Like I always say and will always continue to say, Material means nothing…..to me. Family….is better than billions.

Family….is……the closest…touch…of god…..I’ll come to…..on my journey on earth.

And besides.

One who conquers life and takes advantage of everything in it, should expect rewards. That is the way of a Conqueror. The energy you put in, you’ll get back.

Truly we deserve…a taste.

So there won’t be anymore “What ifs” or “Should I”…..no second thoughts. The deed will be done. Like my laptop, which I bought, knowing it would enhance my intelligence, I’m sure, this will also do the same. The laptop, also benefited Mom and so it literally paid for itself. Twicefold.

anyways. That reminds me. Vista is great. But then again, I don’t pound it too much. Sorta speaking.

And on the subject of taste.
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According to the weather, and contrary to last weeks rainyness, it seems like tomorrow will be sunny.

well…another day…

Another reason to be thankful.

As usual…..

Peace and such

live, Laugh, Love, Learn. Consider it
Signed
Mel
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Love today, not tomorrow

Yeah I definitely like writing the way I think…..with all the ellipsis…..purposely mispelled words…..spaces…and everything that ultimately reflects my thoughts, purely and wholey and such and such.

So I’m kinda feelin a tad bit hungry. But this is a hungeral illusion. See what happened is…I promised a feast tomorrow too….Pasta and fried chicken and such and such…and sandwiches……and so…I’m kinda hungry right now (even though I ate already), just thinking bout it. Know when that happens right? Like when you see some fried chicken on tv and you get hungry, kinda the same thing.

You know, now that I think of it. In Lizzys journals from back in the old days, she wrote this exact way too. Not the same style, but what I mean is she wrote freely and comfortable-ly.

So yeah.

This night, I got my 30 minute work out :D….felt great…showered…such and such…..ate a mango lol…ate a sandwich….not necessarily in that order….but yeah.

As usual, I snuck into Lizzys fridge-eh-dater with her permission and saw the healthy food of the week. This week it was mango. But the mango was actually outside. According to Liz, this is when the Mango’s start coming in. I’ll take her word for it :).

Do you smell succulent lobster and warm butter with mash potaters, or am I the only one?

I guess I’m the only one :).

I might need a snack right now to hold me over. Something like…chocolate soy milk lmao.
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Just got some chocolate soymilk.

Noticed a piece of chocolate left in the fridge Lol. Dark chocolate too. Luckily I averted it with great mental power.

But then I walked past the dining room and saw a piece of cake left on the table.

Then you know that feeling when your mind tells you….”The force is with you”……..

And so now I’m snacking on a piece of cake (Bun cake) and chocolate soy milk.

Oh uh. Heads up to anyone who is considering purchasing chocolate soy milk. It expires really faster than the vanilla one which actually has a lengthy expiration date and thats why I’ve been drinking more of the chocolate one, and why the vanilla one is still in the fridge.
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food prices are going up. Prices in general are going up.

Mike had a funny comment. Funny, but meaningful. He said that if they kept fudging with him, he will go cave man and shut down everything and start reading books. Cell phones…TV……etc…..all those things that those companies think that the consumer can’t live without…..he will shut down.

It makes sense and it shows his spiritual nature.

He isn’t blinded and he sees the real value in life. Not the attachment that society sees. Society says, you have to buy the latest shoes to keep in style, and Mike says, the only reason I have shoes on is so I wont step on glass.

gotta love Mike :)
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shucks…

Imma gonna have to brush my teeth again.
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Speaking of material. Later, much later when I can afford it, I’d like to put a very very big tv in the guest room. Like an HDTV kinda thing. Place it in there and make it a lil theatre thing for the fambly.

You know, I figure I’d rather stay in my own home and watch old school movies, than actually pay money to go see some dinky movie. I don’t even watch movies that much.

Theres a few current movies that I’ll actually watch. A Few. a very very few.

I’m not the type of person who cares about spoilers or endings either. I rather know the whole story before I go see it too.
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You know, I was thinking about something disturbing and grim, but nothing that I can’t handle.

I pictured, sitting in a chair, at the viewing of my mother.

And I thought of something.

Society says, it’s wiser and more ideal to shed a few tears, or show lament towards the dead, especially if it’s a close relation. But….if she dies, in an orderly fashion (meaning a good life…a good run..etc etc…)….then….why am I going to cry over a body? No. I’m going to cry over the person…the spirit…the individual itself. I’m sure I’ll feel sad, and shed a few tears…knowing that my love has departed…..

But my question is. Does society lament for the spirit, or do they lament for a dead body?

The way I see it is….as the spirit leaves the body….the body…is just…a body. It’s discarded. Like clothing.

The spirit has now entered the world of milk and honey and Guardians.

Why am I gonna lament over a body, knowing that my beloved and dearest mommy, is standing right by me, guarding me and acting as my angel until we meet again?

I think that….society……glues the spirit…and the physical body…together…..so when you cry for the life less body….in a sense…your crying for the spirit.

But I rather cry for the spirit…than cry for….a body.

Think about it.

Do we hate the snake because how it looks? Or because we know its look is sneaky and deceptive and because it can strike?
Do we hate the lion because it’s big? or because we know it can rip your head off?

You see…enlightened people…..don’t view the creature because of it’s form, but they judge the creature, based on their personality and actions.

You can’t say, a good man is a good man, just because he LOOKS good. You can’t say a woman is beautiful because she LOOKS divine.

Justly, the body should be honored, and well prepared for burial….because…that is the physical attachment that the human had taken, sorta speakin. So it’s only right to show honor and respect by respectively taking care of the body.

Ah whatever. I guess it’s really a matter of how people view death, but thats the way I see it; as a new journey, rather than a finale.

Come to think of it, I remember mom telling us that she wouldn’t mind cremation. Nor would I. Just as long as they are properly done.

I’m pretty sure I’ll cry like a little baby when that day comes. But I’m sure I’ll be able to move forward, with time, with age.

But the most important lesson to remember here is to……not…..—-…..not to wait…..—-…I don’t know how to phrase it. Don’t take things for granted? Don’t wait until someones dead to tell them you love them?…..theres no point showing emotions of devotion when ones dead?……theres no point showing love and respect when one is dead?…..don’t wait until it’s too late?……..I guess all of that are great lessons.

Live in the world of now. Live in the world of life. Never take things for granted.

Suddently, I have an urge to go create a memory with mommy :).
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Jesus christ that was grim.

*Thinking happy thoughts*

Mmmmm Liz…….fried chicken……ice cream….family…..mmmmmmmm……..
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On a lighter note.

Mike was joking that, one day, when we take over Hell, and someone was to come up to me and say “Go to Hell!” (Not that I’d ever give anyone a reason to say that to me)……I can tell them, “I Own Hell!”

Lol….>>
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Oh oh oh….I remembered something….

Last night I was watching a youtube video and they had this park thing, and they flew a Giraffe to this other giraffe to see them warm up to eachother and such….and they had wedding cakes and such lol…..and it was kinda…funny…and beautiful….because the giraffes started liking eachother and did their necking thing. It was like a park event or something. The place is hoping that they would give the park more babies.

And yes, when I do rule the world, I still do plan to have a pet Giraffe :)

But anyways, I was thinking how…funny that is.

But really…..I was thinking about some unknown loud woman yelling to her husband “YOUR SUCH AN ANIMAL!!” …….And he yells at her and says “AND WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU?!?!”

What I mean is…..we are such animals :).

Giraffes like necking. people like necking too.

And just like animals….their tempers can be calmed by eating and sleeping, one or the other or both….
Food is second to love Lol.

We are creatures and we are still animals….in my opinion…no matter how sophisticated we are.
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They had a poll recently on the news or something about dudes liking women who are curvier these days.

Gee……it took the rest of America to figure , what New York City already knew?

Did people really believe that that whole anorexic like…no-titty-skinny trend was gonna continue?

You know, I hate saying this, because It’s quite inappropriate but…..I’m sure when dudes desire to “bone” women…..they don’t actually….wanna….hit….a bone….*double blinks*

I love curvy women.

Good looking hips are a sign of great child bearing-ness ya know :). Alicia Keys status.
How does any human, not like a healthy eating girl?

When you go to a restaurant, and you order 5 buckets of honey glazed chicken legs(Ok maybe that was a bit too much…heh heh), you don’t wanna eat with a woman who ordered a Salad. It’s just not cool :).

But curvy, means curvy. It’s not…skinny…and it’s not overweight….it’s healthy. A healthy glow. This means, the woman can be “petite” or borderline skinny…but as long as she’s curvacious…then thats good. Or she can have a lil meat on her, but as long as she has them curves, it’s cool like butter :D.

It’s hard to explain, but when you see it….you know…..instincts. *Blinks*
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You know.

They have more seriously ill cigarette commercials on tv. On one hand, it’s getting the point across, and on the other hand, it’s seriously…disturbing. People with half fingers and half toes and cancer and….*shaking head*

People think, smoking only affects the lungs but the truth is, it affects every single part of the human body. Every single part of the human body is vulnerable.

You know, I just…hope…it’s getting the point across and people are opening their eyes, especially those with loved ones. It’s hard…but…determination baby….nothing is easy in life.
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You know…….Just to pick pocket…a piece of….sadness and tears from the upper topic…….and pick pocket a piece from the animal wedding….

Here is another thought…combined…about tears and weddings…..

I was thinking about it when I was watching something on tv….

When I was little, and sometimes, still now, I always wondered why people cried at weddings?

I KNOW why…but I just don’t get it. It’s a peculiar thing.

You know, Liz’s wedding is probably thee only wedding I’ve ever been to, and …..my god….

this…beautiful goddess……stood there….with the most divine smile I’ve ever seen. That signature smile of hers.

Such a happy soft face.

From the moment the day began, to the cooking that we did, to the set up, to the this and to the that, she never let one tear drop. She had a smile on her face throughout the whole thing.

Thats exactly how I want my wedding to be. no tears, and very family orientated, and customized, like hers was.

I could understand if people cry because their reflecting….or happy…or something beautiful………..but I mean….. sometimes…its just a bit odd to me.

It’s a peculiar thing cause, sometimes the crowd members start crying too lol.

It’s sposed to be a day of celebration and people are crying.

I dunno…..
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Vanilla.

I love vanilla….

But I can’t stand…vanilla…lotions…vanilla sprays…..or anything other than eating vanilla….

It makes me wanna vomit….

When vanilla scent is mixed with something else…it just doesn’t smell good in the air.
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Oh eh…lmao….

Today was the day that I boiled Senna Leaves….

Remember I told you guys what Senna was right??

Senna is the leaves that have been used in cultures since the beginning of time (but the western world is oblivious to it)…to help improve bowel movement, and clean the colon.

Basically, all the stuff you see on TV……all laxatives…and almost anything that is a product intended to make your internal plumbing work correctly….has some minuscule form of Senna in it.

You know, I really encourage everyone to use it…if you haven’t already. It’s excellent for the body….because it literally flushes you ought. For one person, you take 8-10 pods…boil it in tea(actually, usually it regularly turns into a tea kinda thing so you don’t really need to mix it with tea. I don’t mix it with Tea)…drink it…wait…eat a bit…and ….nature will literally take it’s course.

My mommy use to give us like once every few months. and it’s a tradition I’m keeping up with.

You know….It’s good for your body. It’s good for your flesh and your internals. It’s just…good for you…period.

And no this isn’t a paid advertisement ;), it’s just good advice.

But so yeah…..todays lucky victim…..was Mike-O :D….lol…..
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*Stretching*

*Yawns*

Anyways…..

I feel good.

I can’t wait to wake up…..run into my Liz’s arms….spend some time with her and catch up with Ms. 19….see what Moms up to……see what Nikki is doing…make a phone call to Maya…..rest…relax…feast…and enjoy the day.

And remember folks. Love today, not tomorrow.

I’m making a difference in life. Care to Join?

I feel fabulous and divine, What about yourself :D?
I hope you feel the same.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn. Clean your internal plumbing so it wont back up on you when your older..lol…….
Signed
The Great Melzini aka…Melini Linguini fettucine……

I also have to be proud of myself, and I am

I figure today I’ll type like a normal person would, not for any special reason except just to do it. I’ll write with paragraphs and such. It’s funny because, the normal style I write with, which reflects the way I think, seems overwhelming to read because of all the spaces but when it’s simplified it’s not that bad. My writing style is an optical allusion.

No time lallygagging. On to the show. On the last episode of “As the world Turns with Mel” I said that I would return to work the next day. The whole week went by and I didn’t go to work. But, on the brightside, I did get more sleep than I’ve gotten in over a year. Next week i’ll definitely be back to work, cause I can’t keep taking more sick days.
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Heres an interesting opening thought. When you enter this family, there is no such thing as an exit. You die here. And even then, your stuck eternally to us. Your in for life. With that being known, it’s wiser for my people to learn how to negotiate, communicate, and act as a unit. When one can’t destroy their enemies, they learn to work around.
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I had a moment that was kinda odd the other night. I went up to the Queens Area of the Palace, where Mommy resides. Had a lil talk with her. She gave me one of those motherly “I’m proud of you kid” looks and I gave her no look in return, except a “Thank you” out of respect. As I walked away, I took a look at my 18 years of life and glanced at all the good and all the bad and all the knowledge and every event. My awakening has allowed me to become a more potent person on earth and one who has made differences and will continue to make differences. It was important for her to be proud of me, especially remembering the Melenistic wars, but it was more important for Mel to be proud of Mel. And I am. I’m quite proud of myself. I’ve accomplished much and I deserve to set a pillar for myself to stand on. Recently, as I was fixing that “glitch” in my brain that I mentioned before, I also decided to finish one little thing that kept bothering me. It seemed that, I still feel an emotional turn whenever I hear external things that don’t concern me. I seem to feel a connection to things that aren’t necessarily connected to me. That was a part of my emotional days and I’ve grown wiser and have learnt to deal with things but there were still tiny tiny tiny traces of an emotional sympathy or anger towards things that don’t concern me. Last night I settled that problem.

Today, I feel proud of myself, knowing that even if the world around me was completely engulfed in blight, as long as my heart kept shining, that’s all that matters. Today, the most important thing is to not be phased by external externalities, but to be only concerned with what crosses the line to my heart. With this feeling of strength, I can proclaim victory over evilness. I can now pay no mind to negative things. With those final glitches being rectified, I can now stand up and continue to be a role model, and a beautiful person and continue to thrive. Whatever happens in the world, it doesn’t have to affect me if I don’t want it to. Besides that, I’m proud of my accomplishments and all the good things I’ve learnt and done and so on and so forth and such and such. Looking back, I’ve been through so much, and I’ve grown so much. I went from Hell to Heaven so Yeah I definitely got a reason to be “proud”.
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Mikey made his very own grilled cheese sandwich yesterday. You know, he’s learning to make different stuff here and there, lol so, yeah. Grilled cheese sandwich is not that special but its definitely great. Tomorrow I was thinking of showing him how to make Pasta and Marinara Sauce. Marinara, I think is Italian for Marine or Marina, you know female names. Marinara Sauce is pretty simple to make. It shouldn’t be too difficult for him. You start with some crushed fresh garlic, some minced onions, slightly simmered in some Extra Virgin Olive oil for 5 minutes, then you throw in your canned or fresh tomatoes, depending on how much you need. Stir slightly, then a touch of black pepper, a touch of salt, Parsley, Oregano. *Shhhh* And my secret ingredients, a half teaspoon of sugar and ketchup lol. Here you have several options, where you can toss in meat like sausage or meatballs or you can leave it just alone because really, all Marinara translates to is tomato sauce. Thats really all it is. Then you stir the pot up a few seconds and let that baby sit on low heat for 30-45 minutes, more or less depending on the heat. Theres other “secret” things I add into the food to make people go “Mmmmm whats in this???” but if I tell you, then it wouldn’t be a secret :D.

I might also show him how to make Parmesan chicken too. Parmesan chicken would just be a follow up with the Marinara Sauce. Just throw some Marinara sauce on the bottom of a bowl, some cheese on top of it, then place the semi fried or fried chicken on top of the cheese and sauce, and then add another layer of cheese and sauce on top and then bake and your done. You know it’s good for him to learn these little tricks and such. People always say something like how it’s special to cook with your loved ones, but when you really look at it, its pretty true.

Tonight I made a feast of food, as I usually do on fridays for the fambly. Usually it’s soul food, like fried chicken and rice and such. Tonight I made this carrot, which was so soft, and so sweet, it was like eating pumpkin and sweet potatoes. Liz bit into it and immediately fell in love with it. She went right after it first. That is, an accomplishment to me. I felt a great joy, watching her eat in happiness. And as usual, it was home food, and clean and made with love, not like that dinky dorky outside food.
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I was thinking earlier. Greek Drama is kinda funny, because of the formula that is usually used to make it a “drama”. For instance, if Liz cheated on Eric, hypothetically, Eric would murder Liz and then I’d run into the room and gasp and say something tragically poetic like “For sooth, thou has murderith thy lover! Ay, my love as well! my heart rips like zeus’ bolt through the skies!” And then I’d run back into my room and commit suicide and then Eric would feel upset and sad and kill himself and then Mike would run in and kill himself after seeing me dead. *Double blinks*. Sounds ridiculous? You bet your behind it does, but that was the “common event” in greek drama. It always had a family who falls under a chain of unfortunate events. Fortunately, as long as i’m still living, no bull sh*t like that will ever happen in my kingdom. I assure you. :).
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On the subject of my love, I was again catching myself glimpsing the life of Eric and Liz. I have a feeling it pleases me more than it pleases Eric(im pretty sure in reality hes more ecstatic than I am) that he has such a great wife. Hypothetically, she’s the type of wife a man can put 6.5 or so million dollars in her hands and leave her for a few weeks and come back and find it all there. She has shown her marital merit to us time after time. She has shown her love, devotion and loyalty to us. Most importantly, love. And Eric has done the same. It pleases me greatly that they are so happy together. They are like in the fields of bliss right now and I hope they stay there forever :). Such a great model to aspire to be like.

And on the subject of love. Its funny cause ever since Ive known Liz, she hasn’t been one for too much jewelry. Ever since I can remember, and as Eric also claims as I was discussing this with him, we’ve only seen her in a few necklaces. About 3 in total. 1 she wears more often than the other two, if she is wearing any at all. Sometimes she doesn’t wear any, but when she has to wear one, thats usually her choice. Shes a simple person and I like that about her. I like how she has an eye for the more finer things in life, like love, laughter, happiness, learning and smiling and such, and most importantly family. And what a beautiful woman. Her beauty shines from her heart.

And I let her know how great she is too. This morning I went to her and held her hands and hugged her and spent time with her. Asked her if she knew that I loved her, and she knew indeed :). My heart is very attached to her. But of course you all know this so theres no point continuing. On with the show! I wish and pray Eric and Liz millions and millions of years of happiness together. Of course, theres no point wishing and praying because I’m sure they have no reason to not be happy together.
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I think quick, I act quick, I write quick, I process information quick. Pandoras box seems perfect to me, the more I think of it. I’m happy I get to do something I love doing and that’s what lifes about.

And heres another random thought. As an arm to a body, so is Mike to Mel and vice versa. We are a unit. We are synchronized.
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So yeah. Looking back at almost 18 years of life, I’m quite proud. I have a reason to be proud of myself. Long Live the Kingdom, Long live the Pharaoh(s). Long live the people.

I’ll continue to continue making a difference and being a role model and a beautiful and strong person. And I’ll never settle for less. And I’ll continue to be proud of myself.

Now excuse me, while I go pull an all nighter with my family and go to bed. Oh right, I still gotta buy that grill pan lol. Just remembered, heh heh.

I love you all. Until next time.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn. And stuff
Sincerely,
The Belle from Hell named Mel. Aka Mel the Belle from Hell. Aka the portoMella Mushroom aka Mel the Master Master mind. Aka that who has more incarnation that a human has attention span.

2 Days later…

So on the last episode of “As the world turns…with Mel”….

I wrote…

“UPDATE:

Funny thing. 2 hours later…eyes won’t close…..so uh…yeah…I won’t be going to work today :D.

Now excuse me while I go make breakfast :D.”

Funny thing. 2 Days later…I still haven’t been back to Hell yet. Pandoras Box is still closed.

I dunno….I dunno….I dunno…..I just….—…I still felt drained I guess. Tuesday and Today I literally spent sleeping to the point where my body started aching. The funny thing is, I still feel kinda drowsy. I have to push myself tomorrow morning to force my way to Hell, or else Imma risk staying home again. I won’t be penalized because I always do things ahead of time, in case I have to take a few “sick days”. Strike before Struck, one of my mottos ;).

I felt so drained……….It’s hard to describe…I just wanted to stay at home. I just wanted to cuddle back with the oversized comforter and with the pillows. I just wanted to see the sun, but there was no sun out all week. Infact, last week was summer…and this week is….winter all over again. It’s in the 50’s and 60’s again and I can feel it. Tomorrows 58, with PM showers. Vegas is looking good out there about now.

Anyways, this little episode has to come to an end and I have to return to Hell and I have to….reopen pandoras box and I gotta start reigniting the turbines.

But…I can’t wait for my  next vacation lol.
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When it gets warmer, I’d like to have a family barbeque on the Roofdeck/terrace/thing….

For the time being, I figured I’d buy a new grill pan, so Mike can learn how to use it.

Plus I need a new one.

It’s very…convenient…..

Mike’s birthday is next week Saturday and he’s turnin the big one eight.
As usual, there wont be no parties or celebrations, because thats not how we do things in the family, but there will be food and family.

And of course…we don’t celebrate…BirthDAYS….in our palace…we celebrate..birth WEEKS. And Birth MONTHS :D.

A birth month is something new this year. It’s basically like a birth week but not as potent. But it’s a month…Know what I mean?
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Stumbled upon an article with bill Nye the science dude who was talking about how people who use 10% of their brain is a myth.

He claims that people use 100 percent of their brain.

And he’s right.

Think about it.

When your not thinking, your always thinking anyways.
When your sleeping, your body is still moving.
You carry out millions and millions of protocols, every second that your alive.
Your right controls your left and your left controls your right.

To me…..It’s not a matter about…..how much percent your using your brain….but rather……how MUCH your using your brain, or how often.

The brain is a muscle. Guys would know. When you work out for a month, the biceps get harder. Then you let three months go about and then it gets flabby again. And then you work out and it automatically reshapes. The brain is kinda like that, in the sense that, if you don’t use it…then there will be a consequence….compared to if you use it. Proficiency. Of course, I don’t think the brain gets flabby or harder, but the thought process can get “Sharper” or “duller”.

The brain does more than we think.

heh…heh….pun intended.
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Speaking bout Hell….

At Hell…..two of my favorite women are there.

I really like these women.

You know, ever since I knew them, they have been…like…so…friendly….helpful….leaders…kind….smart….easy to talk to…..etc etc etc.

Theres something about them that really makes my eye capture them.

I like women like that. Genuine. Who don’t live by no standards but their own.

That’s the type of person I try to be. A Person who….a person can look up to…because of their genuity, creativity, leadership, intelligence, and natural beauty, and kindness and such and such.

It’s amazing how, in my mind, and in others, these women stand out.

I wish their were more women like them about. You know….genuine people.

They are two of my favorite Gravitators who gravitate towards pandoras box lol.

I enjoy their company.

I love talking to them. I love communicating with em. They get all their work done. They get all their things done. Always on point.
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Speaking of which.

Caught my eye on a Liz and Ms. 19 moment…..

And I caught a Eric and Liz moment….

Beautiful. Elegance. Love.

What more can I say.
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My Older sister…well….she’s not coming yet….but shes coming soon.

unless she changes her mind.

But to be honest….Whatever she does, either way, as long as she’s happy, I’m happy.
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Was flippin channels and saw Hockey on tv.

It was really cool watching it.

Never been much of a hockey fan cause I haven’t been exposed to it much but It’s really intriguing.

It’s really violent lol….and it’s really cool watching.

The excitement is kinda non stop also…..which Is another plus.

I might get into Hockey more later in my life, or whenever theres other games on.
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So…

Me and my sous chef was in the kitchen…and …..I told him to check and see if the oil was hot in the frying pan.

So……the boy puts his finger underneath the faucet and……lets a drop trickle off his finger into the pan and…

POP POP POP POP CRACKLE POP!!

….lmao…..

If that one little drop did all that, imagine what a Teaspoon would’ve done.

Oil heats up quickly. Using a drop of water to check is NOT the best thing to do.

Using a drop of water, on an Empty Hot frying pan…is acceptable because you can tell if the pan is hot, but in oil…that’s not the best thing to do.

Oil and water dont mix. so it keeps bouncing on the oil until it evaporates.

He lives, and he learns :).

Such is life.

usually when oil is hot, you just look and see the bubbles developing.

Actually…it really doesn’t even take that long to even bother checking because Oil heats up extremely quickly.
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Don’t know what else to say.

Can’t wait for the weekend.

Back to work I go….I hope.

Morning I wanna wake up, and get a quick hug from Liz, a Liz fix…lol…and eat and spend some morning time with the family

And such and such

And so on and so forth…..

yeah.

Live, Laugh, Love, Learn.
Signed
PortoMella mushroom. Aka that Who has more incarnations than their are moneys in your piggy bank.

The Land of milk…and honey

Opening thoughts? The land of Milk and honey. I was wondering where it is, or what it is, and why it’s called the land of milk and honey. And then I remembered that I had milk in the re-fridge-eh-dater and honey in the pantry.

Problem solved :D.
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Speaking of which :)….I bought and found that chocolate soymilk. Remember I was looking to find the chocolate version of the vanilla one but couldnt? I got three types now, regular vanilla and chocolate. Chocolate is very sweet, and has 140 calories, but it takes good, and plus its soy milk.. :). I still love the vanilla. The regular one…just tastes like…milk. *Blinks*

And as usual, sneaking into Liz’s fridge and finding healthy foods. This week I found…and took…Nutrigrain bars lol.

Can’t wait to have one tomorrow when I come home, and drink a glass of chocolate soy milk :D…

Ah yes…the good life……the land of Milk and Honey :D.
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On the subject of Sweet things. Mike’s birthday is in two weeks,

But on Friday, while cooking a feast…literally…I also managed to cook a small cake for him, and us in general. Quite the tastiness indeed.

Kinda a pre-cake-ness.

Mike went on his Crazy Spartan Militant 1000 jumping jacks-everyday-routine. It sounds crazy, but actually, after a while, the body gets use to that type of challenge so it’s not as bad as it sounds. He likes it cause its fun and it works his heart. Plus he adds on other work outs, like basketball, or weight lifting, or crunches or push ups or a sport or such and such. He is determined…to be a healthy old person :). Well he got the right idea.

But yeah, that cake shall be created in two weeks. Or so.
That cake was good though.

Oh and I made a plethora of chicken Lol. I made fried for the soul fooders, sesame sweet and sour for the ones who are bored with fried, spicey/spice rubbed for the elders, and such and such. Rice, baked potatoes, and noodles.
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Remember when I mentioned that Lizzy likes to eat very slowly and chews her food goodly when she’s alone and has nothing to do? Cause it increases her happiness? And it digests better? And she eats fast when shes on a rush?

Well me and Mike-O been trying to practice the art of joyful slow and thorough eating.

The problem is, is that it will take some practice. We, like most folks, are grown up, inhaling food…sorta speaking…..so it’s a change…but I know it’s a positive change.

And heres a tip. If you have a person in your family who doesn’t like to drink water while eating……put lotsa pepper in the food :D.
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About that Glitch in my head.

You know, after taking the time to actually make it cease and disappear, the energy brought from my consummated mind, feels amazing.

My mental processing power feels improved, faster and more powerful, enhanced and obstacle-less.

My production, energy and thinking power feels enhanced. My mind feels sharpened, just by taking control.

Such is the way of the Conqueror :). Hoorah.

*rubbing hands together*….with a powerful mind comes great responsibilities…and I’m kinda excited that My mind has literally enhanced.
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One Smart thing….that can be indirectly…given to Bush….Is the release date of the Rebate checks.

It’s actually kinda…excellent…..

But before I tell you why. It’s not THAT wise, because, although they want Americans to spend it immediately……A lot of folks is gonna end up buying stuff that comes in a brown box with the label “Made in Malaysia”…..That…does not…benefit..America. Perhaps they should send a note along with those checks that says…”Buy American…Help save your kids future…”……

And Walmart are just some god damn pimps lol. They have those commercials about saving money and helping the earth and all that green mumbo jumbo. But if our economy plummets, whos gonna save us?

The good thing about the checks, which they are trying to launch tomorrow..Monday….is that…Grand Theft Auto…Will be released….on Tuesday.

See what I’m saying?

Grand Theft Auto is a huge…video game. It is…one of thee…best video game series ever. Remember how people were lined up to buy the PS3? …and the Ipod touch? Outside in the cold ?…thats kinda what Grand Theft Auto..is. It’s a great game.

So its a perfect timing because, kids, adults are gonna buy this game. And some people, who don’t have an xbox 360 or ps3…will have an incentive to buy that also.

What I mean is, this is a great time to give rebate checks because theres a lot of goodies out there, like HDTV’s….Ipod Touches….etc etc etc. Plus folks got Bills and most importantly, gas to put into their cars.

theres about 300 million americans. 1/3 of them are getting checks. But once again, one of thee main lessons in the study of life-ism…is that…assets must outweigh liabilities. Likewise, we should be exporting more than we import.
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That reminds me.

You know whats funny?

When you buy land…you buy the land and property.

That means if you feel like setting your property on fire, you can rebuild another one…on your Land…because you still have the patch of dirt in your name.

The funny thing is, that property is an entity. It pays taxes. If you don’t pay property taxes, then the taxes accumulate. You might get Wesley Sniped.

The thing about it is that the property doesn’t have to pay, it justs sits there and is happy. You gotta end up paying those property taxes.

Lol…I just think it’s kinda funny how…property….is an entity….lmao.

In business, it’s sometimes wiser to buy the property, than actually renting it (Over a course of time, if the money isn’t readily at hand)…because after a while, you can liquidize the property.
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One must never feel immune because they have power.

Immunity comes with knowledge, not power.
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You know I was thinking, imagining if I was president.

You know…..I……really….would…..try to make a difference. I really would.

My mind just comes up with so many ideas and I’d love to wake up every morning and actually carry them out.

I’d have them all on some militant stuff too, so they won’t be sitting back and doing nothing.

When I get up, rest assure there will be an idea at hand….such as…..getting rid of the “Bums” on the streets and giving them shelter and such……and then the next day…after that task was done…i’d come up with some other idea like literally inspecting classrooms and work conditions….etc etc etc.

In fact, I’d even try to set a guiness world record of tasks efficiently…and magnificently done….to ensure a better nation.

I mean..if your in a position of power…thats just what you do. You don’t sit back, and take the most vacations that any president has ever taken in office. You don’t wine and dine…knowing that your in the position of making a difference every second of your term.

I mean…wouldn’t you?

What the hell are our politicians doing these days??!!
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That reminds me.

A few days ago…..I was running water….under my hands…while brushing my teeth. Warm water, and I was thinking back during the Melenistic wars when my hands were weak and symoblically broken…and I use to find comfort in running warm water under my hand.

A few days ago….while I remembered that…I also remembered that I shouldn’t waste water because, every cup let loose, could’ve been given to a child somewhere in an undeveloped nation.

But I also thought about that thing I always say. “Your role in life”.

It was my divine destined role in life, to currently be granted with water….enough…to run free…without a care. However, it would be unwise to NOT care….. Obviously the wiser and smarter choice would be to care and show consideration and indeed that is what I was raised and brought up to do. Plus our Mommy didn’t like it when we ran water too much :).

But like I always say, poor folks do silly things cause sometimes they do it out of necessity. And Rich folks do silly things….cause they’re stupid. Maybe I shouldn’t say stupid but…..I mean….can you blame me?

It’s my destiny to have a roof over my head and all these luxuries about me….and gosh darnit….(I love saying gosh darnit. I don’t really say that though…)…..I’m going to take advantage of it.

I’m going to be the most smartest, admirable, intelligent, beautifullest, honorable thing…that ever walked the face of the cosmos……..*Blinks*

Ok maybe thats a bit exaggerated and dreamy, but you get what I’m saying right???

What I’m saying is…that we shouldn’t take things for granted. And, if we were blessed with luxuries, we should admire them, honor them, and take advantage of all the gifts presented to us, so we can live a better life, give back and protect our future.

That is the way of peace and harmony.

That goes back to what I mentioned up yonder about the “Position of Power”.
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My mommy’s sister…….is not feeling well.

My Mikeys…grandmother(The people he calls grandparents, because he can’t remember his real ones since they passed away when he was younger)…is not feeling well.

I’ve arranged for us, next week, to go visit them possibly.

I will say this though.

It is very very important for the body, mind and soul to be a whole entity. If one is imbalanced, then…well…you know what happens….

Also…..as…grim…as this sounds….it IS the truth. That…..it’s better to visit your loved ones now while their alive…..than when you have to make a “last Viewing”….

And these are folks that we love.
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